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Saturday, February 10, 2007 4:01 AM
i jsut could not get to sleep right now. and guess what? is 4am now. i just could not stop thinking about you,wishing you are by my side. i wished i hadn't wasted a few hours trying to make myself not think so much by playing games. and now, i just want to get to sleep and wake up early tomorrow so that i can sort of certain stuffs about my work. haha.some things really cannot be forced. so, sometimes, we just got to take things easy. you got to priortise what's more important and which one will affect your future. right now, i just thought of people who is having some secret admirer. and they are really willing to do anything just to make their loves one happy. well, i'm not pin-pointing to some particular people. yep. but is just that, one cannot possibly heck care about everything just because you are sad that the other party rejected you or do something that made you sad.
Take my lfie for example, i used to like someone for about a year? i got crushes here and there and sometimes i got crushed. haha [a lame joke] but still, the one that i will definately be there for had never changed. no matter how hard i tried to forget that person, it just seem impossible to do so. when i got that person as my first priority, my other areas of my life dropped drastically, for example, my studies and my church commitment. i seriously got no mood whenever that person did not contact me. i wanted to see that person everyday. it was until one day, when i stopped everything and thought for a long time. i asked myself, why am i doing all those things that come to no results? why am i not concentrating on my studies since is the most important year of my life throughout my secondary school life? why is it that person actually holds more important space than the only God that sacrifices all of Him just to pay for our sins? each time i tried to think of that person, i will ask myself, is it possible for us to be together? i doubt so. i lost my time with God, i lost my interest in studying because of that person.
so people, sometimes, we just got to learn how to let go of certain issues, we cannot afford to lose certain things just because of soem decisions that we made without careful thinking. memories are good for a certain period of times. but as time goes by, you will soon start to forget about the past past memories. so keep looking forward. because everyday is a new day. and there is a new thing to discover everyday! do not give up. i will not give up hanging on to my God. because He's the one who made everything worthwhile.
no matter how much i wanted you to be with me, i know is impossible. al the best to you. i will still think of you, but then i will control myself. =)